From: Ken Meyering (ken@define.com)
Date: Tue Aug 10 1999 - 18:39:32 MDT
Any idea of sexuality can be reprogrammed? I'd like to consider
myself to be bisexual, although the truth is that I'm still not
completely comfortable with same sex sexual contact (although on a
platonic basis, I enjoy emotion intimacy with both sexes).
I've had one experimental homosexual relationship that lasted about 2
weeks. It started as my being a kind of apprentice to a Reiki
massage practitioner, who slowly desensitized me to being nude while
receiving a massage, then eventually receiving oral sex. It felt
liberating to know that this was *not* high risk behavior, since I
wasn't receiving fluids.
I've been told by other massage practitioners that this amounts to
undue influence and breach of trust. For me, though, it was a kind
of therapy: a chance to know that men can exchange sensual pleasures
in a way that respectful and safe. I tried French kissing, but
didn't ejoy kissing a masculine mouth nearly as much as a woman's.
I do, however, consider myself to be a hedonist. So why not conquer
the anxiety and discomfort and learn to enjoy same sex affairs?
There's such a large community of beautiful people who are gay or
bisexual. Why be limited?
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ken@define.com
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