> Scott Badger wrote: I would never ever presume to tell you what you were
> feeling, but what you
> describe sounds on the surface more like obsessive-compulsive behavior
> connected to some variant of an existential crisis.
cool! i always wanted some variant of an existential crisis. sounds so... walden. {8^D you are most likely right tho. i never sought professional for help at the time, so my self diagnosis is probably off center. i know i am obsessive (thus the nickname). i tell my coworkers: i am *not* anal retentive, im just an asshole who holds onto things... {8^D
> ...The Darwinian "Aha" experience for me was more
> drawn out and therefore less traumatic...
the darwinian "aha" experience was truely a breakthru. i often wonder how i can help convey to others how that concept can create order from intellectual chaos. spike